Nothing is as it seems.

So I've found out recently that many of my friends occasionally smoke marijuana. I know it's not the end of the world. There are much worse things they could be doing but as a person that would never even consider touching the stuff I find myself feeling really judgmental and almost disgusted. I feel really kind of bad about that because marijuana is not that terrible. the main reason it's shunned is because it's illegal. They normally do it pretty responsibly, but I did find myself almost hitting one of my best friends because I found out he was high when he was driving. I didn't let him keep driving and made someone else drive. Some of them I wasn't to surprised when I found out they smoked but the other day I learned of one person doing it that seriously bothered me. I lost a lot of respect for that person and I feel bad that I did because I'm sure it was just curiosity, but this person is almost like a younger sibling to me and I very rarely get mad but I felt something unpleasant churning in my stomach. It is comforting to know that I have friends like Rake, and Tad that I know will never give in to their curiosity though it is slightly disconcerting because I considered some of my other friends to be in that category as well. They know I'm not happy about it but I don't know what to do about it. They're all smart kids and as long as they don't do anything stupid I logically don't have a problem with it. I wish that my logical side would just agree with my emotional side for a change.